I am so frustrated and restless
Real freedom is not wearing any makeup and rubbing the FUCK outta your eyeballs
He kissed my forehead. He told me good morning. He whispered compliments in my ear. He held my hand in front of our friends. He tucked rogue hairs behind my ear. He watched me and smiled as I stared out the window. He offered me his jacket. He played me my favorite songs on his guitar. He got me water when I was too hungover to move. He rubbed my feet. He wrapped his arms around me as we slept on a twin-sized mattress. He sent me pictures. He texted me good night. He’s coming to visit me on my days off. I don’t know if this will ever bloom into anything, but I was certainly taken by suprise.
They say that you should date someone when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely. Sometimes, I feel lonely and wish I had a special someone of my own, but when I really think about being in a relationship, it puts me off so much that I become grateful that I’m single. I have so much freedom and so much room for trial and error. I have so much potential to grow and change. There are so many opportunities presenting themselves that normally wouldn’t be there if I were tied down to another person. I am having the time of my life. I never knew I could be so happy alone.